Just a little insight will make this right
We’re going to talk on Wednesday, about a lot of things, probably. Even if I decide against breaking up, there’s much else that needs to be discussed… secrets I need to share, and perhaps some changes that need to be made.
I’m so scared… perhaps I’ve been planning on doing the wrong thing after all?
Can’t look back now, though.
It’s the best time of the year
So, I don’t know if I’ll be able to do it. Yet, at least.
Having been back for a few days now, something inside me fails to see why I was planning to break off our relationship in the first place. Then again, another side of me remembers how I’ve been feeling about us since this past summer.
Maybe I’m just scared of hurting someone? Maybe I’m just scared of what everyone will think of me afterwards?
I just don’t think I’ll be happy. Though I’m in a great relationship with a great person, I’m just not sure anymore if it’s meant to be… It seems like we’ve just grown in different directions in the past couple of years, and I see no signs of us getting any more similar to each other in the future. We’re just different people now… the person I fell in love with once is simply no longer there.
This doesn’t even have anything to do with my friend from college anymore. It’s something I need to do for myself… I just wish that people would be able to understand afterwards.
We’re going to a Christmas party tomorrow (today?). It should be fun, but we’ll see what happens in the aftermath.
…Anyway, I started playing RF Online, per recommendation from several of my friends. It’s quite good, even considering the typical Korean MMORPG feel that it has. Haha, I’m not a nerd, am I?
Christmas is coming. I got a car yesterday! A green 2000 Grand Am, for $1500 at a car auction. I’m just wondering what’s wrong with it… trying not to get my hopes up too high. I’m going to pick it up on Wednesday… From what I was able to check out myself, it seems like it’s in pretty good condition. Now all I need is that job at the hospital this coming semester so I can pay for the insurance…
